A glimpse of my untamed mind

June 19, 2011. I can still remember everything that happened during that day. It was my day of conquering fear – all sorts and form. The day when my love said “Yes” to me. The day that a new love story began.

It was a Sunday. Fair weather graced Cebu City during that day. We got up pretty late as we were worn out with our trip to Bohol – a lovely place. We ordered breakfast to our room as we were both stubborn to get out of the room.

We both planned to get on the famous Edge Coaster, a different way to view the city atop the tallest hotel. A perfect place to ask. A perfect place to romanticize. We got a great package with buffet lunch, 4D movie, and the edge coaster ride.

I am afraid of heights. I feel that i will fall down everytime i peek outside even from our office window. I have to conquer this. I planned to say a rehearsed line, but fear started to engulf me, ravaged me to the point that all i said was “don’t play with the controls.” She laughed the whole time. I was in shaking while holding her hand. She just kept on laughing until the ride has come to a halt. A big sigh of relief.

We then went to the Ayala Mall to catch the Green Lantern. We got our tickets and went to Red Mango to grab some frozen yogurt. I was still down with the adrenalin rush wearing off and bothered that i was not able to say it. My spirits were low and bam! In seconds, i shattered a bowl. Wtf. I was nervous, i was uneasy. She comforted me that everything will be okay. I was scared, honestly.

Left the store, went to see Green Lantern. I was pumped up with his overcoming of fear and battling a villain powered by fear. Wuhooo. Long live the lantern.

The movie ended and the day was fading. I was running out of brilliant ideas; of gimmicks. I sugested we grab a coffee before going back to the hotel. Then asked her to sit near tge garden. Silence was casted between us. Then she broke the spell and had the first pitch. “We have to have the talk”. Panick struck me. I was ready for this, but it was as if i was paralyzed – can’t move, can’t speak. My heart was pounding so hard and fast i could hear it from my chest. Courage found me again.

I spoke. I asked. She said “Yes”.

It was June 19, exactly a month ago. We’re together, in love. We’re both happy.

Happy Monthsaversary Mahal ko.